I was growing just a little weary of the barren feelings that had been overwhelming me. As I alluded to several times now – for reasons unbeknownst to me, I was incapable of creating anything period. To every direction I scavenged in hopes of inspiration, I found none and it lingered for about 4 weeks. I hadn’t ever found myself in this disposition before and I hope to never get stuck in it again, but after my last few rants, I’m finally rebounding to normalcy. And where did I discover this fuel? I hate to say it as it’s nothing profound and rather a platitude, but I actually refueled through the people around me, some of whom I don’t even know on a personal level. Isn’t it funny how we can feel so close to someone whose existence isn’t closer than a computer screen? That’s the wonder of social media I guess. But I also found vigor through those I consider mentors (who also happen to be my ‘bosses’). Let this be a reminder that the biggest influences in our lives, our actions, and our decisions are derived from the people – the minds – we surround ourselves with. When we want to be uplifted, inspired, or empowered, we tend to look to those surrounding us first so if you don’t find them in your presence or take it amongst yourself to do so, you will never be uplifted, inspired, or empowered. I’d always heard the saying “find a mentor, find a mentor” yet I don’t think I’ve had one since grade school…that is until now and I’m finally recalling how beneficial it is to have one (or more). Where have I wandered off to? I’m so grateful and lucky to have used social media to stumble upon Zanita & Gustav to see potential in me, support me, and give me critical feedback that pushes me to grow and inspires me to excellence. I wish and hope everyone could have such opportunity, not necessarily through a fashion blogger, but through someone who can have that kind of impact on them. So now that I’m finally out of the tunnel and ushered into the light, I’m inspired to create again.
As of a week ago, I decided I’d divulge more depth from my mind & soul into my blog and express whatever I’m feeling regardless of how ridiculous or insane I might sound. I’m also going shopping soon (not for the wardrobe), but to create pretty pictures and I’m really excited to ooze the creative juices I’d been harboring over the weeks…let’s just hope it renders a masterpiece and nothing like that of a hodgepodge.
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